Feelings

It’s been a week since my Dom set me free. I’ve had time to process, so that’s precisely what I’m gonna do.

At first, I cried. Like, a lot. I could barely get through a sentence without crying. Then I vented and vented and vented some more in my Discord server. People were very nice in there. I then got mad. Probably unbelievably so, but I did. I also learned that a “good” Dom will tell their sub why they’re being released. They don’t (or shouldn’t) just leave you like that. Now I’m in the numb stage. I don’t know what comes next, but I’ll deal with it.

People won’t understand this, but I still respect him. I always will. Why? Because, though he handled the situation wrongly, the good outweighs the bad, and he taught me a lot about myself and how people should treat each other, regardless of what side of the slash they may be on.

I’m happy I net him, and I truly hope for nothing but the best for him, even if it’s not with me. Nope. I’m not that petty ex who wants to slash tires with a Louisville slugger or whatever. In fact, I still wanna hug him. Lol.

So yeah… if I keep writing, my hand will hurt so I’m gonna end this now.

Thanks for reading. This kitten is signing off. Meow! 😽

Things I miss about my previous Dom

So…. first off, my blog is a month old, so yay!!!! Second, this is my place to get my feelings out, so if you don’t like that, I couldn’t give a rat’s ass less!!!!

1. His patience and understanding. This one is pretty self-explanitory.

2. His love and how he always looked out for me. He gave me structure when nobody else I’d been with had. He was also really concerned with my recovery of my knee, which nobody else gave a rat’s ass about even though they acted like they did.

3. His experience and his seriousness for education in the lifestyle. Pretty much all the peeps before him were just playing, or they did the D/s thing cause they were just doing it for the simple fact that I liked it, or they didn’t actually wanna learn all the things that are important to learn in BDSM until it was too late.

4. His willingness to educate in my spaces, and give his perspectives. Ok so he might have done so bluntly, but I love honesty and he always made me think.

5. His voice. Before y’all think I’m being all sexy and shit, nope. I just mean how safe it made me feel and how calming it is.

I’m sure there is a hell of a lot more, but I’d love to publish this sometime today. Lol. I don’t know what’ll happen next, but I’m sure it won’t take long for my journey to have another twist. And I’m surd I’ll be back to talk about it.

I can’t promise I’ll be back next month, but hopefully I’ll be back soon.

Thanks for reading, and peace and love to you all!!!!

I feel beautiful

I have a task that I do 3 times a week. It is one where I touch different parts of my body. I usually just did it because I loved to, and I am, well, a sensational human, so it just makes sense.

So today, I woke up and did it again, because today was the day I was supposed to do it. While doing it, I felt calm, warm and loved. When I finished it was like…….. I saw myself the way he sees me, and I actually believe that I’m beautiful for the first time ever. It’s a wonderful feeling, and I am happy that I’ve had this change of heart.

Domming isn’t for me. Here’s my story

I have 2 exes. They wanted to try the polly life, and well, that didn’t work well with us either. But neither did me being a Domme.

I knew, from the moment I started my journey of submission, I had no desire to be a Domme. I do not have a dominant bins uanywhere I’m my body. Just cause I have kinky Facebook, Discord and a subreddit, doesn’t make me a dominant individual. Apparently, though, they thought it did.

So, one day, while we were doing whatever we were doing, they wanted me to Dom them. I did, but it felt awful! It didn’t feel like me in the slightest. I didn’t like it at all. I respect those who can either a: be a Dom/me or b: be a switch.

At least I know without a shadow of a doubt, that it’s not for me, and I know where I belong. I have a lovely Senpai who allows me to be myself, and isn’t trying to change me into something I’m not.

So yeah… that’s my story and I’m sticking to it.

I hope y’all enjoyed reading this.

A little about me

Hello, word press!!! I’ve been here before, but I haven’t had much luck with blogging. I never have anything to say. Maybe the third time will be the charm.

Onto the good stuff…

My name is Luna. I’m 28, a submissive who has a lovely Sinpai. I’ve been a submissive for nearly 4 years, but I feel like my journey is just beginning. I’m excited for what will happen. I don’t plan anything, because it backfires when I do. Most people don’t like it. But I’m me, and I don’t wanna change for anyone.

So yeah… that’s me. Hopefully I’ll be back soon.